12 months on......

Can hardly believe that it is now 12 months since I was first diagnosed, in many ways it has flown by and in other ways it seems to have been a lifetime!

Christmas was good and as I had my sense of taste, dinner was especially nice. Kevin's parents and his sister joined us which was lovely and although I did the dinner everyone else cleared away and washed up the things we couldn't fit in the already bulging dishwasher!

I went into hospital on the Thursday after Christmas to have my last chemo and again had an adverse reaction which was not good but as before they did eventually manage to administer it and I finally came home on New Years Eve.

2007 started quite well until I had another very high temp whch necessitated me being admitted once again to the Marsden for a week, the infection finally subsided and the temperature went back to normal. It seems that I maybe have a pocket somewhere in the bowel area that doesn't drain and therefore keeps flaring up - I have now had a x ray with some sort of dye to try to establish where this pocket might be, although quite what they will do I have no idea.

I have also had an MRI scan now that my schedule of treatment is finished, and unfortunately they have found a 'questionable node' which they are not 100% happy about and so I am having a more in depth scan on the 12th Feb to establish whether this node is a pesky bit of cancer that thought it might be nice to stay, or nothing. This has obviously been quite depressing news to digest as I was hoping for a clear scan but now the waiting continues and it means that the reversal of the colostomy is also on hold at present. As well as everything else the stoma (Freddy as it is affectionately called) not only has prolasped but has now developed a hernia underneath it so it looks as though I have a small rugby ball on my side - I make light of it but it is gross and everything I wear, even the patterend tops that used to distract from Freddy, are now unable to hide this nasty lump which from the right side looks as though I am about 8 months pregnant!

So, the waiting continues, until I know the results of the scan I do not have a timescale for the other surgeries. Apparently my surgeon will not do the reversal and the hernia at the same time, so that will mean another stay in hospital. It does seem that my return to anything like 'normal' seems a while away yet; this bloody cancer seems to be moving the goal posts all the time!!!

I have, however, returned to work on a part time basis, I am still too tired to do a full day so I come home mid-afternoon and have a sleep which is lovely and I am being very good and not fitting in shopping, cleaning etc in those hours and waiting until Amy comes home before tackling those sort of jobs together.

will post another blogspot after I've had the scan and hopefully will have some good news to tell everyone. xxxxxxxxx